♠ Wednesday, January 19, 2005

' I hate rascists.'

That was hurtful.
He told me in the face. seriously or not, i have no idea.
i just remember feeling a sting at the moment, and i was tempted to retort ' You don't have to date me, really. you can leave now if u want.'
But remembering it was something too tiny for me scream and yell over, i calmed down and continue walking into the mrt station. He probably was just kidding. no hard feelings.
Of course.
And syaz? no i dun hate you. even though i'm a rascist. i mean... you knoe i just had really awful experiences with malays and indians when i was young. For some reason, they loved picking on me. I almost fought with one boy. His name was RAyden. and he was VERY vain. And some superficial idiot hu used some.. BLue Jeans perfume container as his pencil case. and he practically worshipped it. if i accidentally tipped it over he'd curse me and start yelling at me. i've never seen suchhhhhhhhhhhh revolting people in my life. THere was once he spat at me. SPAT! Blardy idiot. and he would take my pencil case and throw it violently on the floor. i felt so insulted and abused. i can feel the rage in my chest rise, right this second as i type.
You can't blame me for not wanting to donate to the some Malay charity organization. Donate so that they can grow up, go to the U and become my boss and bully me somemore? (Really Syaz, Farhanah, Sharifah and other malays hu might have come across this entry, pls don't take offence.)
so while Keith struggled to say something to the malay guy in a reddish long sleeved shirt i turned away and tried to hint Keith to say NO. But he even asked me if i wanted to share for the 5 dollars voucher. He took out 5 bucks and gave it to the malay guy. Keith is such gullible boy. ANYONE at all, go up to him with a tin can or something saying it was some charity he'd donate almost immediately. No questions asked. And these ppl seem to read him like a notice. They practically make a beeline for him! Such a ...... kind looking boy-> that's the nicer way of putting it.
If i was blunt, i'd say he's a dumb dumb.
Winson on the other hand would so agree with me. then again, maybe not. i heard from him not too long ago about his malay frens. so i guess.......

' If it was for a chinese organization, i'd donate. '

Rascist! he said. Yes i am a rascist, i smiled wryly. Did i ? or did i roll my eyes at him?
And he said the magic line. That pissed me off for a few seconds.

Whatever.
Today's a freaking hot day.
it makes me irritated.
Everything's gonna piss me off.
Fortunately i'm sittin in the comfort of my home listening to Jay comfort me with his mumblings.

i am a female.

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City's breakin' down on a camel's back.
They just have to go 'cuz they dont know whack
So all of you fill the streets it's appealing to see.
You wont get out the county, 'cos you're bad and free
You've got a new horizon it's federal style.
A melancholy town where we never smile
And all I wanna hear is the message beep.
My dreams, they gotta kissing, 'cuz I don’t get sleep, no.

*BEEP* Windmill, Windmill for the land.
Turn forever hand in hand.
Take it all in on your stride.
It is sinking, falling down.
Love forever love is free.
Time forever,you and me.
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