♠ Saturday, February 19, 2005

Mom used to complain how i have the habit of just doing whatever I want. Without thinking of the consequences behind it.

Some time ago, when i was younger, i used to be very restrained with things that i did. Take for example, saying the 3 words- I love you. I said it like once in a blue moon. Only when i really meant it, and the time really called for it, or when i'm just in a good mood. I thought saying it regularly would... sort of devalue the meaning it had, and... like, make it... sound... superficial. But it's true what!

Compare saying ' I love you' every single day, and saying ' i love you', say, once... in 5 months. Of course when you say it that once in the 5th month, the receiving end will be so overwhelmed and touched or something that they pounce at you like a fire alarm with kisses all over your face.

Later on, i met a guy, whom i dated. Who never failed to say i love you to me daily, just before we hung up. I was of course, irritated that he was degrading the sacred words. Therefore, whenever he said the 3 words, i'd disregard it, and just reply in a polite manner, ' Why, thank you.' Which was pretty mean.

Still he never stopped... so.. i asked, 'why do you keep saying i love you to me? do you even mean it??'
He surprised me, saying something to the equilvalent of, ' i say that every single day, because, i want you to know that i do love you( oh REALLY i thought, and till this day i still doubt it ), and i don't want to regret not letting you know that. if i do die or something, and miss the chance forever.' The last part made sense.

Altho i didn't start hollering 'i love you' at every chance i had... i did do it.. like.... Now. =) Oh, btw, that guy and i broke up over the phone. Nice & sweet guy tho.
Yep.. lucky keithy. I dunno why, but when i dated keith, i decided not to hold back what i felt daily. I don't know.. sure.. it might scared him off.. or sound shallow.. but oh well... since it feels so right, why not? And i mean it everytime i said it!

Whether i yelled some distance away, or looked into his eyes, or say it playfully, it all came from the heart. & if u heard the song 'If tomorro never comes' by Ronan Keating, but it's originally by someone else, you'd prolly attempt to say i love you to that special someone daily too.I mean, i might just die tomoro. Anyone might die tomoro, and miss out all that they ever wanted to do. Altho i know it ain't possible to fulfil all your unaccomplished wishes, the least you do, was to let your loved ones know how much they meant to you, not only by words, but also by action. Actions speak louder than words, right?
So, i'll promise myself to tell Keithy that i love him, and well, show it, at least once a day.

' I Love You sooooo much sweeetie!'

*MuackS!






Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

i am a female.

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They just have to go 'cuz they dont know whack
So all of you fill the streets it's appealing to see.
You wont get out the county, 'cos you're bad and free
You've got a new horizon it's federal style.
A melancholy town where we never smile
And all I wanna hear is the message beep.
My dreams, they gotta kissing, 'cuz I don’t get sleep, no.

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